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Sunday, July 1, 2007
Virgo (Aug 23 - Sep 22) The Bottom Line If you have a choice between love and money now, go for romance! Love's in the air. In Detail If you have a choice between love and money today, go for romance! Work opportunities are like buses -- if you miss one, another one will be along soon enough. But when you meet someone who really ignites a fire deep inside of you, you cannot pass up the opportunity to get to know them a little bit better. Skip out of the rat race today and see if the two of you can get away somewhere to talk, share a new experience or just enjoy a leisurely meal. I wonder if its true..the horoscope reading from the friendster.. another week have pass.. a tough week for me to handle.. emotional and tiredness... for consecutive night where i only sleep for 2 to 3 hrs each.. yanyan posted a comment for me on friendster.. "u n hazel's partnership for ballroom is good!!! *envy envy*" im very happy to hear that if what she says is true but i dunoe how to reply her oso.. thanks for that anyway.. i like rumba... i like to dance with her doing rumba... for a instance, it bring us slightly closer.. i really enjoy that moment.. the smell of er hair, the so called hug.. damn bellman to remover the hugging step.. keke.. but well.. i think soon will be gg into jive.. wonder how it wud be dancing with her.. i miss the feeling.. end of the class.. so called end of today contact.. Tot we suppose to watch that together...? Haix.. think she dun remember.. i wanted to msg but i force myself not to.. and well theres really no msg.. my hp seem to be on silent mode.. it doesnt ring,doesnt vibrate unless i do something bout it first.. why wun it juz ring and vibrate on its own? even if it ring and vibrate, its another disappointment.. its someone else.. its hard to accept a lie tho it was meant to be a white lie.. i accept it and accept the fact.. i hate to see couple on street now.. juz hate it.. or maybe envy.. have been drinkin for the pass few days.. juz get into the mode and goes to sleep.. i know my body is overtired already.. i can simply sit down for awhile and knk out soon.. this is which tat wun happen to me at night.. i need to rest i know.. n comments is i got slim down again... damn.. y am i still awake now? still waiting for something.. wud it comes? i dunoe.. fear to hope.. i can feel alil unwanted when ask for that.. wonder shud i ask again.. its sunday.. dinner is postphone once again.. so what for the day.. like as tho no reply.. can i juz skip this sunday and goes to monday straight? was chatting wit a fren.. he said he wana destroy her ex.. cuz she is happily there but he is suffering here.. yup its stupid way of thinkin.. i wun agree to what he thinkin.. i know and understand when she happy there and you suffer here.. but well.. in the heart u wan her to be happy.. its hard going thru this period of time.. but u got no choice but to accept the fact.. unless... unless u can forgoet bout it immediately.. Me? i cant tho.. so let time do the job.. Giving up isnt something i wan.. its seem so tempted to prevent anymore hurt.. but its not easy doing so.. i tried and i failed.. i tried and i failed again.. the two time i tot it wud really be giving up.. but no.. it isnt.. it din happen that way.. its juz goes on.. im aint no weirdo... im aint no somebody.. im juz myself.. situation brings me to be what ppl see.. naturally i can say.. i hate to act juz to get something.. maybe im physco... know being hurt but still hanging on to it.. no matter what.. its really hard.. its too fast too deep.. climbing out aint easy for at least.. it consider to be a short time.. but frankly to say.. u the only one that made me tears for in these short time.. so i will only tok to my blog from now.. i dunwana say anything bout it to her again.. i hope.. i juz wana be appreciated.. im not gona believe what others say.. cuz im the one in the spot, not them.. i wun say i know u very well.. but i believe she wun be that way.. hope i din see it wrong.. sometimes i can tell what going on from the way she tok to me.. i guess and it turn out right.. sometimes i cant see what she's thinking in ur mind.. sometimes i hope something from her but wit the minimum of hope.. im scared.. Lil things from her make me smile.. i feel touch and glad and happy to received the call this morning.. im kinda stunned in some way.. maybe its seem so "what the hell" but it really being so to me.. i fear to think more nowadays.. i fear my wild imaginataion wud be running so wild till i cant take it.. qns is in my mind but where do i stand to ask.. where do i stand to expect this and that.. if im something to u, i think that wud be the least thingy u will let me know.. but i guess not.. and this is different from controlling u.. it juz the natural thingy u wud do.. i guess juz to accept the fact and what we are.. thanks for some fb ppl for ur care and concern.. im glad..and come with some surprised from the way ur reacted.. well..i will be fine ya.. life goes on.. Heard bout ishi news.. its terribly stunning to hear bout his death.. he's a very talented guy.. but in the end.. died for love.. i think its stupid to do such a thing still.. *Rest In Peace, You Will Be Remembered In Heart - My Friend* sometimes im scared to do anything.. so how will the coming week to be like? or how will it be like later? See how it goes then.. im the water and which follow hows the bank goes.. its 3.25am already.. i shud be sleeping soon.. hp is still in silent mode.. i think i shud sleep... i think i need rest.. Sigh~ -j0n- ~~~~ o.0 ~~~~ Smash my head into the wall, smash my fists into the wall, smash my heart into the wall. whatever its is, its juz so unknown to me.. there lots and lots more out there.. even better ones.. there someone new or what.. act blur and treat them as fren but not in the other way.. so what am i.. juz another that appear? a third party now? who is actually him? my heart hurts when it comes to my mind.. it happen right in my face.. why? tryin to test the strength of my heart? its there already.. do u care how i feel? and dissappear suddenly.. what do i meant to you? can u tell me? i really wana know.. i feel total no confidence.. "love" is getting to far from me.. too distant.. can i juz take out this part of my heart and throw it away? what can i do to ease it? what can i do to feel better? what can i do to make life easier? to be a bastard? a total bastard? fuck man.. somebody kill me~!~! i dun feel anything from her.. care?concern?feels? ARghhhhhhhhh~~!!!!!!!! what am i? an actor.. to smile and be happy male lead.. KillMe~ anyway im dyin soon... i know... and its thats it.. |
:: demonic spawn PROFILE 
Name: j0n
-[ i miss dancing so muchie; ]- -[ i respect frenship; ]- -[ i cherish frenship; ]- -[ i believe in frenship; ]- -[ i love new hp msg when i juz woke up; ]- -[ i love stage; ]- -[ i love dancing; ]- -[ i love singing; ]- -[ i love the beach; ]- -[ i love quietness; ]- -[ i love chaos; ]- -[ i love crowds; ]- -[ i love being alone; ]- -[ i fear being alone too tho; ]- -[ i can be a quiet guy; ]- -[ i can be noisy as well; ]- -[ i love to hug..; ]- -[ but is there anyone?; ]- :: fetish uncoils - - - - - :: dark desires
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