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Tuesday, July 22, 2008
These 2 month have been a really bad and hectic one. For me and my girl, Sara. There was so many things happening at the same time. Its tiring, its lost, its trapped in the middle, its helpless. Which should i handle first? which should i set as prority? What should i do next? Its only possible for me to be a 1 place at any 1 time. Hospital/work/sara/chalet/driving test/sickness/ah gong/family/studies.. Chalet - its not a friend chalet, its a last min R.O.M planning/help out for my bro for my late gong.. In the end, my late ah gong left us. Its been such a torturing period of time for him and unbearable pain for us to see. Being helpless and nothing much we can do, but to stay by him, helping him, taking good care of him.. Seriously, i miss him.. Many years back, our house and grdparent house is just a road apart, and its almost every night we will go to grdparent house. then after some years we move over and stay with them for around 10 years plus too. As i grow older, we actually seldom had any conversation with ah gong but still i respect him somewhere in my heart. i know he dotes alot on we, 3 bros and i think we haven been a very good grand children. its so regretful when seeing him in that stage. the least i can do is to help him whatever i can when he in that stage. Staying up till late to watch over him cuz seriously i dun trust those maids. the image of him on the bed still stuck to my head, the moans and struggle still clear in my ears, his helpless looks and under morphine treatment hurts everyone of us. but there's nothing else we can do but trying to comfort him... First time experience that someone so close to me passed away. the feeling suck till no words could describe. its helpless when it happen. after settling it, everything still have to go on. the path is still there to continue the journey. everyone back to their position and lives goes on too. but memories will always be there within us.. im sorry for not being a good grandson. we will take care of ah ma. R.I.P ah gong... Love, sorry for those period of time i wasnt with you. i believe u know whats going on around me. there's really too many things to be done by me, as a grdson, as a son, as a brother, as a NG's member, as a military personnel, as a bf. at least now, more or less matters have been settled, i will spend more time with u k..im sorry.. How important kinship is. How important time is. How important money is. How important to cherish someone beofre its too late. How important to weigh whats is more important. and alot more..... i hope my studies will do well... ah ma, take care of ur health.. mum and dad, watch out for ur health.. Pat bro, have a happy marriage.. Dex bro, take care in NS.. j0n, live well.. love, stay happy and smile.. |
:: demonic spawn PROFILE 
Name: j0n
-[ i miss dancing so muchie; ]- -[ i respect frenship; ]- -[ i cherish frenship; ]- -[ i believe in frenship; ]- -[ i love new hp msg when i juz woke up; ]- -[ i love stage; ]- -[ i love dancing; ]- -[ i love singing; ]- -[ i love the beach; ]- -[ i love quietness; ]- -[ i love chaos; ]- -[ i love crowds; ]- -[ i love being alone; ]- -[ i fear being alone too tho; ]- -[ i can be a quiet guy; ]- -[ i can be noisy as well; ]- -[ i love to hug..; ]- -[ but is there anyone?; ]- :: fetish uncoils - - - - - :: dark desires
It's been so long.
May 2007 :: treasurous content Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm :: demon's childs
- [F.Bodz] :: victims' screams
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