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Sunday, December 14, 2008
Yes, i shut the computer, Get on to bed and im back here again. Just Thought and feels... FB's 1ST Ever Production - Get Educated! is finally over. After months of practicing and rehearsal, i believe we have done our best. Its the 1st Production we had and the one that is produce by solely F.Boderz. Just the Club, all the family's member we have, we are able to make this work out. In fact, we do not have any dance instructor to train, to motivate, to guide and teaches us. At least ever since im in FB, there's none. It was in 2002 when i had joined. By the time im a senior, there's only the 5 of us keeping things going in the club. It wasnt easy but with just the 5 of us, its indeed a sweet and bitter journey. To this day, 2008, we have over 100 of family members. Yes, poly life is 3 yrs but i still stuck to the club till now cuz seriously i din bear to leave. New generation comes and gab widen between us. 6 generation comes and im the Great-Great-Great-Great-Grand Senior? i think so. Finally, here comes the 1st FB Production! Get to know more juniors(tho they do not know who am i), get to see a clearer pictures of some, learning more dope moves and getting sick of eating MacDonald everyday. Shit does happen. People getting injured, ache, emotional, stress, tears, technical problems. End of the day, its FB's Cheers! Its the last night of the Production, indeed, an emotional night. In fact, the first night when i saw the first genre performance, i was touched. Wetness filled my eye. Controlled. Its link me back to the first performance by my junior at the atrium. I was touched too. For tonight, i held back quite a few times. I felt the family bond is strong once again. As a 5Gs Senior, i see the club grows from the time i joined, its really affecting. Watching the photos on the screen brings back lots n lots of memories. After all, life goes on. Lotsa thinking and decision to make. To Baby: Read your blog and i feel i haven been good. Family, Kb, Dance is what i cherish. Things doesnt comes easy to what i have with them. Things we been thru, encounter and achieve is meaningful. Sorry for neglecting u recently. Thanks for being understanding(tho sometimes still .. ..), care n concern, supportive, and to know my enthusiastic towards this dance production or rather this dance club. i cherish u, i hope things work out too. Loves... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Getting too realistic and practical? Bad? in some sense, maybe. Once again, life goes on.. Decision have to be made. Choice have to be chosen. Plans should be done. What have i been doing? Wasting my years away? What can i do? Confusion rushes in again and again. An Emotional Day... Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Its like 5 days to my birthday! How will it be like? I don't know, just wait and see. Each year passes just like that, gaining another year older is indeed a difference. Think back for the past 1 year, what have i been through. Some comes to my mind so clearly, some just faintly appear in my mind and some just can't get the picture to form up in my mind. Some struggling moment, some happy moment, some touching moment and some "oh gosh, finally its over" moment, many many more... I wonder why sometimes i would think in such a way and why not like some other people. Public Holiday is like just another holiday, my birthday is just another point of time to add 1 to my age. Damn... i think i just wasn't such a positive person in some ways. Now i begin to wonder if i can still finish ACc. Im not in the mood to study anymore. Do i even need to do so? Confused but just continue since i started it. - i think for you, that's why i ask u for your opinion. Nothing is decided yet because i thought about you. However it end up still like this. i know you are still unhappy about it. i wonder. Many a time i prompt you of what is going on? what are you thinking about? i don't want to guess so much. Its just make me think more and more and led to to some unknown answer. Your ignoring is really hard to bear.-  "A Step At A Time And See Things Goes... ..." o.0 Jon&Jon Scream-ed @ 9/09/2008 01:31:00 AM 0.o Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Baby is back to vietnam which means away from me for 7days. Its not a very long period of time but i missing her! Its the 4th day and 3 more days to go. Hopefully i can make it on time this saturday after my duty to fetch you. Im sorry that i cant send you off on Sunday due to the Army Half Marathon(AHM). Its really bad not to send you off and picking you up. I will try to make it k, love.  Its 0430 in the morning, i was busy fixing something for my girl since 0200. Its something meaningful and its just worth all the effort putting into it by the two of us. Im glad that baby like the Bracelet i fix for you tho i find its still kinda plain. I will fix the butterfly for you when you return k!! Nothing bad will be happening, its just that the quality of the butterfly is BAD!! Get rid of those thoughts! Went to meet my Primary school friend just now after getting home from dance. So yea, went for supper and chat up. He has been doing really well, earning one the average of 5k per month, what do you think? Maybe he really was in luck to get into such company. Its really the first time i met up with a primary schol mates since PLSE!! Holy cow, that was how long ago man... Nice catching up anyway. Ever since..(aint sure when), my weekly schedule has been a routine. Monday and Thursday - Night class, 1845 - 2215. Tuesday and Friday - Dance Pactice. Saturday Morning till 4pm - Dance Practice. Wednesday, saturday night and Sunday will be sharing among my beloved gf, friends and family. But of course my girl have the Priority. lolXx..??? And yes got to include work on weekdays, 0800 to 1730, plus 2 duties, sometimes OT and extra manning on weekend. I hardly got time for myself as you can see. SOmetimes i wish i can just stay at home and slack. But like period of time like now, without bb beside me, i get lonely.. ARrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh.................ROAR!!!! just wait then... I finally got my licence on a very nice day, 22nd of August. Its 7th month for us and its ah gong birthday and a great day we had wit my love tho the fireworks was dissapointing.. Lotsa thanks to my very nice colleuge for lending me his car for practice!! HaHa.. Kept smiling after passing! BB i gonna drive you around and round and round - cuz sure get lost somewhere!! lolXx.. Now, my poor kun ge, still struggling to get out of the break-up. YES, i admit he does get irritating for keeping asking the same few question over times, asking questions that "how the hell i will know the answer", but i cant leave him alone when he needed someone. I can only try to help and advise and getting sense into him. I got Sara, not just my kB brothers Eh. lolXx.. My girl kept end up saying i "dating" some guys!! HAHa.. SO Adorable.. Im Straight UH!!! uHUhHuHUHUhUhUHuHUhUHuhUhuhU............ Its 49days since ah gong left us.............. i think i better give in to the zzz monster right now!! Bye! Love, my girl.  Sunday, August 3, 2008
Who to trust who not to, u never know, i never expect. So see how it goes. What to say, what not to speak. Relationship which went through hardship for almost half a decade can be gone just with a simple reason. Relationship that started out in a unbelieving way might turn out to be a good end also. Problems comes and goes and even stays. Sometimes its out of your reach, out of your controls. There is nothing you can do. Sometimes, even when you have the control, you have got no idea what to do about it. Putting you at a loss. Yes, a foolish thinking of getting away from all these and to stay in some unknown place. Just a way of getting away. Just like lying on the clouds having sun tanning or floating in the middle of the ocean. Random. Shall the truth unveil. Shall the Sorrow and Unfairness be regain. Shall the Lies and Untold be expose. Shall the Culprit stand out. Thou should not know should not be known.   I would prefer them titled it The Joker or something. Its seem like the Joker is more like the main character comparing to that Batman. I still prefer the Joker role.... Heath legder...Indeed, bringing out the Joker out from the Comic World.. I guess i wont be used to the next one taking up the Joker Role. Unless he is really good too.. R.I.P Heath... I feel like watching the show one more time tho..loLXx.... Why So serious!~!!!!!!  Nice Show! Nice Character! The Joker! Friday, July 25, 2008
 Cool design uh..  -Ma Maison-The restaurant ambience was alright, deco was not bad and the food was only average i can say.    Only ordered 3 dishes but its actually quite filling, maybe the curry rice actually make me feel quite sick after eating 3 quart of it.. Some photos at the weird dating venue while waiting for the movie, Dark Knight.  SmileXx kiss Love Sara looks so sweet right!Took some neo prints too and its nice... Weee... but i only have got neoprints so too bad then.. Its Half a Year... Its seem so fast.. So many shit happen in between... but its turning back on the right track now uh.. Sweet memo shall be creating.. hmmm... im tired and sleepy.. Day at work and night in school.. Part time isnt easy ya.. Nitex. Tuesday, July 22, 2008
These 2 month have been a really bad and hectic one. For me and my girl, Sara. There was so many things happening at the same time. Its tiring, its lost, its trapped in the middle, its helpless. Which should i handle first? which should i set as prority? What should i do next? Its only possible for me to be a 1 place at any 1 time. Hospital/work/sara/chalet/driving test/sickness/ah gong/family/studies.. Chalet - its not a friend chalet, its a last min R.O.M planning/help out for my bro for my late gong.. In the end, my late ah gong left us. Its been such a torturing period of time for him and unbearable pain for us to see. Being helpless and nothing much we can do, but to stay by him, helping him, taking good care of him.. Seriously, i miss him.. Many years back, our house and grdparent house is just a road apart, and its almost every night we will go to grdparent house. then after some years we move over and stay with them for around 10 years plus too. As i grow older, we actually seldom had any conversation with ah gong but still i respect him somewhere in my heart. i know he dotes alot on we, 3 bros and i think we haven been a very good grand children. its so regretful when seeing him in that stage. the least i can do is to help him whatever i can when he in that stage. Staying up till late to watch over him cuz seriously i dun trust those maids. the image of him on the bed still stuck to my head, the moans and struggle still clear in my ears, his helpless looks and under morphine treatment hurts everyone of us. but there's nothing else we can do but trying to comfort him... First time experience that someone so close to me passed away. the feeling suck till no words could describe. its helpless when it happen. after settling it, everything still have to go on. the path is still there to continue the journey. everyone back to their position and lives goes on too. but memories will always be there within us.. im sorry for not being a good grandson. we will take care of ah ma. R.I.P ah gong... Love, sorry for those period of time i wasnt with you. i believe u know whats going on around me. there's really too many things to be done by me, as a grdson, as a son, as a brother, as a NG's member, as a military personnel, as a bf. at least now, more or less matters have been settled, i will spend more time with u k..im sorry.. How important kinship is. How important time is. How important money is. How important to cherish someone beofre its too late. How important to weigh whats is more important. and alot more..... i hope my studies will do well... ah ma, take care of ur health.. mum and dad, watch out for ur health.. Pat bro, have a happy marriage.. Dex bro, take care in NS.. j0n, live well.. love, stay happy and smile.. Friday, June 13, 2008
Hi people, im back. Have been so lazy to update any thing much. Aint gona say anything much tho.. I have never been enough and i just suck totally... sara  my love  mum n dad  my brods  sorry. Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Where's the kB that i had? The gang isn't there as like before. I guess its just the different path we have to go as we grow. 9 years ago we were still a kid hanging around secondary school, going grandlink for lan-gaming, walk around in town aimlessly, having long john silver for like every meal, having cup noodles by the road side, doing 'i don't know what' thru the night somewhere in singapore, going party world like nobody's business, etc. There's just so much more to be listed out if i want to. Present. The few of us went into different path of life. Heading towards individual dreams and goals if there's any. Basically busy with their lives. I guess its really the growing up that changes it. However i know these people will be there for me, Always. Friends that used to confide in me have left for others. I wonder why. Cuz i ain't the way i am? Guess its the distance between. I ain't too sure either. Where's the hunks, babe and the in-between? Everyone seem to disappear. Sms,msn ain't like before. There's reply, there's none. Its dissapointing. Or is it just something about me? I ain't too sure either. I need to get some sleep right now after a night of duty. Loves, Sara. Loves, kB. Loves, Friends. Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Leave Day -6- 25/12/07 (Tuesday) Home still, blogging back for the past few days. i guess i will be home for the whole day again which i hope not la.. Lets see how it goes then.. Leave Day -5- 24/12/07 (Monday) Its the Eve of Xmas!! There's ain't really any Festi mood for me tho. Even the plans at night is last minutes. Just cant seem to get anyone man, making the whole Xmas so pathetic. Lonely Xmas another year..Buddies with their gfs.. damn sadded-ing.. Went all the way to Clementi for Jeremy's BBQ, Thanks for the invite!! Have been eating like all the fish type over there, but it taste great yea.. Anyway, end up at BQ Access Room again after that. Have been going there like so often man ..lolXx.. Seriously, the conclusion is that, counting down in a pub is not fun!!! Even when counting down, its like "Oh OKay... Merry Xmas.." There's goes all the spray which after sometimes makes you feel saffocation!! Superstitious Girl! Finally after 12, we exchange present (Sherlyn and me), have promise to exchange present like a month ago.. Haha.. I guess u really like the present so much!! I like the necklace too!! Thanks You SO much!! n where's the kisses huh..    Dont feel like typing so much.. juz check out the photos..       ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Nothing. Leave Day -4- 23/12/07 (Sunday) Im Home For the Entire Day Man!!! There's nothing for me to do. Got onto the net since i woke up and all the way till i went back to sleep. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ friends! friends! friends! I have friends! but why it seem hard to find someone out? Leave Day -3- 22/12/07 (Saturday) (Cant really Remember again) Access Room again.. Ya..this time round is boring even there's quite afew of us.. Me Kai Qinhai Joey Jo Wayne Leong.. Still, its bored.. People,please tell what else can we do at night.. Boredom fills me. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ To Be that way isn't a bad thing to yourself. But to be out with these friend is sometimes a unhappy experience. Leave Day -2- 21/12/07 (Friday) (Cant really Remember) I went to Access Room and BeBe was there too working as the party girl.. By the time she left for home, she's already so drunk.. Tsktsk.. Ya...Its was actually a fun night but i cant remember what has happen eh.. Its not im drunk but just bad memory i guess.. lolxx.. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Expect what you unexpect. People changes. You never know what he/she may becomes in the future. & You never know what you, yourself will becomes either. Leave Day -1- 20/12/07 (Thursday) Met up with Joey and Eunice for steamboat dinner somewhere at selegie where they provide badie bad bad service. I know its their business tactic but it's really irritating when you order a plate of meat from them and took them 15mins to finally serve it..!! Just simply pissed..!! However its quite a enjoyable dinner. I wonder why im so Idiotic at the dinner, ending up we juz keep laughing.. Not to forget bout the Umbrella Woman!! LoLXx.. Eek... Went off to meet Gabriel at Dbl 0 after that.. Kai Officially becomes the PaPa's Boy!!! Goes MOS again as places like Zouk and DBl 0 just unsuitable for us. Therefore coming to the last choice which is MOS then. But end up its still quite fun over there.. HaHa.. While waiting for the PaPa's Boy, Gab and i was slacking at this bridge and there's a cat accompany us..lolXxx..We even took pictures together k..   ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Memory lingers around tho time have been passing all this while.. Monday, December 24, 2007
Got me ten feet off the ground And I'm hearing what you say But I just can't make a sound You tell me that you need me Then you go and cut me down But wait... You tell me that you're sorry Didn't think I'd turn around and say.. That it's too late to apologize, it's too late I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you And I need you like a heart needs a beat (But that's nothing new) Yeah yeah I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue And you say Sorry like the angel heaven let me think was you But I'm afraid It's too late to apologize, it's too late I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late Woahooo woah It's too late to apologize, it's too late I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late I said it's too late to apologize, yeah yeah I said it's too late to apologize, a yeah I'm holding on your rope Got me ten feet off the ground Thursday, December 20, 2007
Time: 0541am Location: Home Mood: Nothing Much First of all, i just have to admit i have a "Face Of Beng". I just got back from MOS and somehow felt insulted!! Am dancing(more like standing) in the dance floor and the main light just went on. It seems like its time they are closing already(0415am), every rush for the exit as if there's fire there. Since my position was so far in, friends and i wait for the crowd to disperse. After awhile, things doesn't seem right because the crowd simply didn't move at all and then the ANSWER came. A PO(Police Officer) walk pass. Yup, its a raid. Its the first time i experience LightsOn in MOS. Nothing can be done so i just continue pushing against the wall by the DJ and took some photos~ Haha~  (That guy in singlet somehow just irritates me) Right after i took this 2 photos, 2 PO came to me: PO: "Can You Please Come With Me?" j0n: "Erm.... ok..." (What The F**K? Can I Say No?) So ya, follow them and went to Queue Up along with those "Specially Selected" fellows. Took my IC and i just continue standing there. Asking me to declare any sharp object, turn me around and started to "touch" me!! Body check i mean..Haha.. This Old PO then came to me: Old PO: "Name?" (Looking Away) j0n: "Jonathan" (relax) Old PO: "What You Working As?" (Still Looking Away) j0n: "NS...A Regular.." (still relax) Old PO: "As What?"(Looking Away Still) j0n: "Technician" Old PO: "Which Camp?"(Finally Look At Me) j0n: "CAB" Old PO: "You Can Have This Kinda HairStyle Huh!?" (Looking At Me) j0n: "No..But i Clearing Leave Now" (Abit Yaya.. HaHa!!!!) Old PO: *Stares* j0n: (Blanks / Waiting For His Next Qns...) Old PO: "What Your Rank Now?" j0n: "2SGT" Old PO: "Army Right? So You Know What Is Serang-diri(Stand Straight) Right?" j0n: "Errr Ya..." (Wondering Why Sucha A Qns...) Old PO: "So Can You Stand Properly? Show Some Respect? " j0n: "Orh.." (Haha What The F**K......) Old PO: (Walks Off...) j0n: (NaBei...) Haha.. When i join the Queue and answering his questions, i was in this position...  Then change to this.. damn...I can only say they are simply KUAI-LAN. One after another came to ask if i got tattoo not. Can't they communicate?? How many times you want to ask?? So after waiting and waiting, gotten back my IC and went off. (PUI!~~~) A few of them was taken back to question don't know what.. Join them back for awhile and went home lo.. (Am Hungry!!!) Day 1 of leave, its boring. I went for haircut and yup 2 weeks of leave so got some lines by the side of the head.(Guess these few lines got me to be "Specially Selected" too..) Here Are Some Photos...HehehE     Im Clearing Leave!!!!Im Shy so Date Me!!!! wahahahhahaha~~~~~~~~~ ........... Im Hungry and Tired!!!!! Should i eat or sleep first?? hmmmm.... I shall think about it on the bed after i off the laptop. Haha..I will sure fall asleep la!!! Ok..Eat first then.. Haixx.. Ah Beng Face going to sleep le.. NIteE!!!!! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Is there something wrong between? i wonder. How will my leave be? I guess its going to be a boring one. i love mum! I ain't no mummy boy, and its doesn't have to be one to love mum!!! i really got ah beng face ar?? Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Went for a course at RedHill in the morning till 1630 plus.. then struggle to go home/movie/camp for steamboat... in the end i chose to go back camp while waiting for sher reply instead of going home cuz its bored too la.. so well end up in camp and end up no movie cuz i guess she had a really tired day of work.. kai jio to go zouk or BQ but in the end i still go home..All the waiting and eating in camp make me so tired..dun even feel like blogging actually.. guess it will be a early night for me... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Mood was normal today till i read something.. How come it does affect me... Dont wana think so much la... i just dun understand ba... Sunday, December 9, 2007
i cant sleep yet again.. i slept only at 5 plus and 8 plus i woke up please!! From then i got knock out once in a awhile till 10plus & i gave up.. End up walking around in the kitchen chatting with mum.. Haixx.. Why i juz cant slp man.. I Din club for like 3 weekS!! yest went to MOS milkshake - it suck!! i pause for like 5 mins after typing the previous line. i thought i have alot to say? but well nothing comes to my mind.. AlriteXx... crap then.. saw that woman..?  this pic was taken while taking a shelter at a bus stop near my place during the pour..loLXx..this woman is the most digusting one la!!!! staying my block.. i really cant stand her man.. Digging her freaking nose like nobody business in front of you... Damn Shit... And her eyebrow is the most horrible one.. Yup its tattoo like some others but hers is..... i dunoe, just terrible.. im sorry i know im not being nice saying all this kinda things about others.. but im bored la and she happen to be in the pic..lolXx.. But she is really god damn disgusting irk-ing one.. there you go tempted-to-punch right in her face.... *RoAR puKe* Melon Time!!!!!    Alrite.. the other went grocery-ing with mum and i bought this watermelon back.. FINALLY, i got my wish come true!! Whahaha..... Which is to dig from the half melon!!! lolXx.. Its was fun k but ya it was really so filling due to the juicinesss!!! ya that's all.................................. i will be back when i got things to share.. BBB Blogger... o.0 Jon&Jon Scream-ed @ 12/09/2007 01:26:00 PM 0.o Saturday, December 8, 2007
Can all the cab please for goodness sake switch their LED light to "BUSY" or off it when u arent going to fetch anybody!!! This is really fucking irritating when u tried to held a cab and he doesn't stop for you and in the end u realize there's fetching a passenger!!!! its really !@#$%^&*. Especially when you have waited for so long for one cab and you thought u could finally get one!!! Please let the rest know about it.. Is it that difficult!!!???? Well maybe it is faulty or something... but what?? You think i care??@!!!! its your fucking job to service it!!! Damn the next one who gonna do this to me, im sure gonna complain about it!!! You better dun let me remember ur Car Plate Number, You Fuckers~~!!!!!! AND~!!!!! This fucking indian who who right in front of me and get the cab!! FUCK YOU!!!! Just trying to ignore me and fuck off to where you going??!!! Im sure the driver see my heaven MIDDLE FINGER pointing at you, fuck up black.. The driver slow down when he pass by me!!! You just turn away huh!!! Grant you a fucking serious stiff neck!!!! !@#$%^&*( lastly...... FUCK YOU!!!!!!!! Tuesday, December 4, 2007
At One Degree Fifteen   In The Club         Nick's Bdae    Random Me           simply to say i just lazy to blog so just upload some random pictures which helping ah ma to break her tablet into half...Zzz.. feel like i will just doze off s soon i lie down anywhere!!! *Yawn.. Last night i slept around 10pm but i still feel tired today, i wonder why... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ i forgot what i wana say.. Lastly... i still type so much... Whahahaha~~~ zzz |
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Name: j0n
-[ i miss dancing so muchie; ]- -[ i respect frenship; ]- -[ i cherish frenship; ]- -[ i believe in frenship; ]- -[ i love new hp msg when i juz woke up; ]- -[ i love stage; ]- -[ i love dancing; ]- -[ i love singing; ]- -[ i love the beach; ]- -[ i love quietness; ]- -[ i love chaos; ]- -[ i love crowds; ]- -[ i love being alone; ]- -[ i fear being alone too tho; ]- -[ i can be a quiet guy; ]- -[ i can be noisy as well; ]- -[ i love to hug..; ]- -[ but is there anyone?; ]- :: fetish uncoils - - - - - :: dark desires
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May 2007 :: treasurous content Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm :: demon's childs
- [F.Bodz] :: victims' screams
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