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Sunday, July 22, 2007
I Felt A Challenge!!! Im losing.. Theres a lie somewhere...? Issit true? Im scared... I know it wud end.. n i feel that is it.. he's winning.. Once again i felt that my heart sink.. Its the dunoe how many times.. there's sure any things i do not know.. i have no right to know... but if a lie to me? What wud it be considered as? i fear to know the truth.. i felt the Cracked heart shape like thingy is falling into pieces.. its suffering... No tears i said to myself before the talk.. now i understand the feel to hang on and not to let it flow.. its unbearable.. my heart is feeling really heavy.. Zhen De Hen Xing Ku.. My palms are cold and my hair stands... Heart is sinking and tangling... Thats how i feel... Its crying out inside... but who cares bout it? Or choose not to care? It really hurts~!!!! this feeling sucks~!!!!! What shud i do now? what shud the next step be? What will we become? what will they become? i FuckiNg Dunoe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Somebodyjuzkillmeplease... why the parting have to be that dramatic? seeing my train's door and her train's door closing at the same time... what a fucking farewell.. so near yet so damn far... for a few time tears in the eye and swallow down while gg to town.. took a seat and smoke and juz wana broke down.. hang on and hang on.... .... ... been looking at my hp.. thinkin i may mis a call or msg.. finally when reaching home, there's a msg.. im so so so delighted..~!!!!!!!!!! but it gone after a few msges.. online and i told myself to hang on again.. whats gg on mAn~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the tears in me really gona burst out.. did u lie to me? i feel like slp thru a few months and wake up when everything is normal again.. its sucks... got a testimonial from genting.. i tot its special.. but nah.. not for me only.. im juz a nuisence now... im nothing... juz nothing... maybe a nanny... Arghhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~ how to stop that feel in me.. its drilling and drilling... NO~!!! its not gonna flow... NO!! NO!! NO!! i need help.. |
:: demonic spawn PROFILE 
Name: j0n
-[ i miss dancing so muchie; ]- -[ i respect frenship; ]- -[ i cherish frenship; ]- -[ i believe in frenship; ]- -[ i love new hp msg when i juz woke up; ]- -[ i love stage; ]- -[ i love dancing; ]- -[ i love singing; ]- -[ i love the beach; ]- -[ i love quietness; ]- -[ i love chaos; ]- -[ i love crowds; ]- -[ i love being alone; ]- -[ i fear being alone too tho; ]- -[ i can be a quiet guy; ]- -[ i can be noisy as well; ]- -[ i love to hug..; ]- -[ but is there anyone?; ]- :: fetish uncoils - - - - - :: dark desires
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May 2007 :: treasurous content Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm :: demon's childs
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